small girl in a big world

i cant find the prom site. Somebody help!!

So tired of fighting with everyone. Parents, him, myself..I’m tired. I give up. I’m trying my best not to go there buh more than not im going to end up saying fuck everything & everybody because I just can NOT handle what’s going on around me. I’m losing control which is the worst thing possible right now. Blah. Venting.

Every weekend Cory decides he needs to find somewhere to go out. I never really feel comfortable with it but because I’m always at work I feel that it might be unfair to ask him to stay home all night. Problem is when he goes out he doesn’t come back in til 1 or so…no matter how tired I am I usually stay up until he comes home. I usually call him & tell him I’m ready to go to sleep & he’ll make his way home..tonight was different tho…I called & I didn’t get an answer & I hate to think that I got ignored. Smh…now I’m amped up & don’t wanna go to sleep buh staying up only makes me more upset. I end up taking some pain killer sleeping pills…not really in physical pain buh I figured the sleep would help ease my emotional pain…don’t judge..